What an emotional rollercoaster these past couple weeks have been. I first want to say thank you for all the prayers. They have meant so much to my family and especially my sister. Time help to heal, and God has been so good to my family. Jully 4th our emotions skyrocketed when my sister Janaye got engaged. I am sooo excited!!! My dad told me the Thursday before and when I heard I just started crying. It was such a surprise to all my family and especially my sister Janaye…who had thought she would have to wait patiently for her now fiance Ben to save up for a ring. I have never seen her happier. A glow is over her face. So the distraction of wedding planning has consumed my house. However with four sisters the wedding is basically all planned. She will be getting married October 6. Goodness I can’t believe it’s that soon but I have no doubt that by the time everything will be in place and ready…especially my sister. :) All I have to say to myself over and over is God is good…and oh isn’t he good!

This morning I went over to my sister’s house to spend some time with her and my little nephew before heading to work. We talked a lot about the future and what that might look like. We talked about her little baby due to arrive after Christmas.  We talked about names she and Andrew have picked out, and how uncomfortable it is being pregnant when it’s so hot outside.  We wondered what it is going to be like to have another little one running around.  Wrapping up our “sister time” I headed out because she was going to her doctor’s appointment.

Three hours later I got a phone call. It was my sister Nicole telling me she lost the baby.  They couldn’t find a heart beat. I was shocked…the baby was already so much a part of our family. How can you miss someone so much you have never met?  In all honesty, it’s hard for me to know how to respond.  All I know is that I’m just so sad that something so wonderful isn’t always what God has planned.